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Regrets of the Dying
For many years I worked in palliative care. My patients were those who had gone home to die. Some incredibly special times were shared. I was with them for the last three to twelve weeks of their lives.

People grow a lot when they are faced with their own mortality. I learnt never to underestimate someone's capacity for growth. Some changes were phenomenal. Each experienced a variety of emotions, as expected, denial, fear, anger, remorse, more denial and eventually acceptance. Every single patient found their peace before they departed though, every one of them.

When questioned about any regrets they had or anything they would do differently, common themes surfaced again and again. Here are the most common five:

1. I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.

This was the most common regret of all. When people realise that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.

It is very important to try and honour at least some of your dreams along the way. From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late. Health brings a freedom very few realise, until they no longer have it.

2. I wish I didn't work so hard.

This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children's youth and their partner's companionship. Women also spoke of this regret. But as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence.

By simplifying your lifestyle and making conscious choices along the way, it is possible to not need the income that you think you do. And by creating more space in your life, you become happier and more open to new opportunities, ones more suited to your new lifestyle.

3. I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.

Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result.

We cannot control the reactions of others. However, although people may initially react when you change the way you are by speaking honestly, in the end it raises the relationship to a whole new and healthier level. Either that or it releases the unhealthy relationship from your life. Either way, you win.

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.

Often they would not truly realise the full benefits of old friends until their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down. Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years. There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved. Everyone misses their friends when they are dying.

It is common for anyone in a busy lifestyle to let friendships slip. But when you are faced with your approaching death, the physical details of life fall away. People do want to get their financial affairs in order if possible. But it is not money or status that holds the true importance for them. They want to get things in order more for the benefit of those they love. Usually though, they are too ill and weary to ever manage this task. It is all comes down to love and relationships in the end. That is all that remains in the final weeks, love and relationships.

5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.

This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realise until the end that happiness is a choice.  They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called 'comfort' of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again.

When you are on your deathbed, what others think of you is a long way from your mind. How wonderful to be able to let go and smile again, long before you are dying.

Life is a choice. It is YOUR life. Choose consciously, choose wisely, choose honestly. Choose happiness.

i learned to live, half alive
and now you want me one more time

who do you think you are?
runnin' 'round leaving scars
collecting a jar of hearts
tearing love apart
you're gonna catch a cold
from the ice inside your soul
don't come back for me
who do you think you are?

"You see the word love every five feet in a cemetery, a hundred more times than you see or hear it in real life, and I wonder why the fuck people wait until somebody is dead before they tell the world they loved them."

Shawn McBride - Green Grass Grace  sid. 87

Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.



Konserten var fantastisk. Om jag gillade Green Day innan så är jag helt hopplöst förälskad i dom nu.

Ha det bäst, mina små

Jag är störd. Det finns nog inget annat ord för det. Tänk om jag kunde få sluta tänka och sluta lyssna på saker som sägs till mig. Jag är så jävla trött på att vara den känslokalla, elaka, dominanta bitchen med commitment issues att jag kan spy! AAAARRRGHHHH!

Joshua Radin - I'd rather be with you
I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you are naturally the one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah
I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too



Train - Hey soul sister
Your lipstick stains on the front lobe of my left side brains
I knew I wouldn't forget you and so I went and let
You blow my mind
Your sweet moving
The smell of you in every single dream I dream
I knew when we collided you're the one I have decided
Who's one of my kind

Hey soul sister, ain't that Mr. Mister on the radio stereo
The way you move ain't fair you know
Hey soul sister I don't want to miss a single thing you do,
Tonight



I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM!
Lyssna på båda låtarna och fall, fall hårt för dem. De förtjänar det!


Annars har jag en hemtenta som gör mig en aning stressad. Endast 3 veckor kvar av skolan nu så ska försöka få fram nåt som liknar energi till dessa också.

Hej hopp mina vackra!

Jag har fått frågan av Caroline vem det är som jag träffar nuförtiden och eftersom jag inte vill att hela Sverige ska kunna läsa om mitt privatliv så besvarar jag dina frågor här Caroline :)

Han heter Robert och är 87:a. Våg. HAn har blont hår och blåa ögon, vilka blir finare och finare för varje gång jag träffar honom (romantiskt dravel, jag vet). Han jobbar som plåtslagare och har gjort det i 7 år. Skostorlekt vet jag inte men han har större fötter än mig, big plus. Han är 1,85 så om jag har platta skor är han längre, men i mina nya älsklingar så är jag bra mycket längre :) Han bor i en tvåa. Hmmm.... Ja, det var väl allt jag känner mig beredd att dela med mig av :) Hoppas du är relativt nöjd nu, Caroline :P

 It's nothing wrong with you
It's me... I'm a freak
But thanks for lovin' me
Cause you're doing it perfectly

There might have been a time
When I would let you step away
I wouldn't even try



Jag håller på att göra min årliga sommarskiva. Lite tidigt one might think, men det känns rätt just nu, så då kör jag på bara.
Helena ska komma och hälsa på mig i sommar :D Hon vill testa att festa South Harbour style och vem är jag att missunna henne det.

Nej, men det var väl allt. Hmmm.... jag borde ta en underhållningspiller eller nåt. Men tills dess, ha det bra, mina små!